Shock, Laughter and Tears

Courtney’s first reaction was laughter. After all, how absurd! There no way she could have CANCER. She went in for a routine wellness visit, was little anemic from the B-12 deficiency, and not she was battling some nasty virus and just had to ride it out. That was our mindset. The laughter quickly became tears as we considered the prospect have actually having leukemia and became fearful of what might lie in the future.
The next few days Courtney would battle feelings of shock, denial, and fear all the while holding onto hope that this would all blow over and by the weekend she would be back to her normal, energetic self. Each day became a bigger struggle as she progressively felt more ill physically, with the dread that what she was feeling could be the cancer eating her away inside. Results from CBC #3 from blood pulled on Monday’s doctor visit came back on Wednesday. They were worse. At this point we had a scheduled visit to a Hematologist/Oncologist on the following Monday (two days from now) but he agreed that he needed to see her sooner and bumped her up to Friday morning.